i am sad. have you ever known someone that you just really really wanted to be friends with, but it's just not happening? either they live to far away, or just don't feel the same way, and it's nothing personal, it's just not happening. yeah, i'm feeling that now... times five.

long story, but i had a reality check last night... i'm a "tour friend." it's a lot different than being a real friend. we are friends that know absolutely nothing about each other except the small-talk-catch-up that occurs one night every four to six months. they are amazing guys and i love them, but we have such amazingly limited envolvement with each other.

and it hurts a bit. i guess after four years of this i should just give up, huh? i mean being a tour friend is a hell of a lot better than being no friend at all. i'm determined to be the best tour friend i can be.

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